Hello, I am new here and if I am being honest, I don’t have a proper father figure to look up to (I have tried religion, celebrity worship and since I was in a dark space, even got pulled towards fascism. I regret all of it, especially the last part because it made me hate the world and myself more than I’d like). Also, I’d like to apologise if the first paragraph was TMI and heavy, not in the best mental space here. So, I was raised singlehandedly by my mum, who is pretty rational in most cases except when she is not. Then, she’d make me do her bidding even if it’s against my wishes. More importantly, she’d launch what I call cute sounding attacks, where the tone is nice but the words sting and when I retaliate, she’d ask me to watch my tone. Umm, hello? What about your words? Anyway, for the past few days, she has been launching such attacks while I am eating and since I am on a diet (I am a fat dick, unfortunately but to no one’s suprise), it is already terrible to eat what I have to, and to listen to her is painful. I don’t disturb her when she eats because her weapon of choice is: “do you want me to leave my food?” Has worked since childhood so I have been Pavloved into not talking to her when she is eating and taking my food to my room instead of the dining table. To top all that, I got into baking and making sandwiches since she likes the latter but I made a lot of cake batter the previous day so she guaranteed the extra batter won’t go rancid. Newsflash, it did when I checked on it today. I thought I could save it by adding more stuff but it tastes like the butthole of an animatronic orange. (Take that BrandNewSentence) Her defence? “I forgot.” She is fasting today for some religious thing which I no longer partake in, because it gives me false hope. I have no one else to complain to and when I try to talk to her, she’d once again play the victim. At this point, you can call me a selfish child, and so be it. You can consider the cake to be a trivial issue and tbh, it is. But why am I feeling angry? Why do I want to yell at her? Please help. I don’t think am going crazy but I might be wrong, as with other things. TIA. submitted by /u/Fabulous-Let-1164
Originally posted by u/Fabulous-Let-1164 on r/AskMen
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