I am a grown ass man, and I am still carrying a lot hurt inside of me. I have tried to bring it up to my parents, but they have said to move on. My friends don’t know what to say to me when I try to tell them what I’ve been through; they quickly change the topic. So here I am, a 33-year-old man speaking into the void of Reddit, hoping that I can get a sensitive ear. I grew up with both my parents in a “loving” home, but I never felt loved; I always felt like I was the least loved. I know feelings aren’t reality. Reasons for these feelings: Here comes the shitty part. I remember playing with my brothers when I fell and cracked my head open. I was 8 and had a gaping wound on my forehead, with blood running out like it was a broken tap. Mom and Dad were not back home from work. When they arrived, before they took me to the hospital, I was given a hiding and beaten. That has stuck with me to this day. I remember in high school, coming to my dad for career advice, he told me to do whatever I want. I know this sounds good, but I saw him actively guide my siblings when they posed that same question. There is more I could say, but as I type this I feel like I am just whining. I’m not a kid anymore, I should get over it. There are people out there that have had it far worse. To anyone that has read this, thank you. I appreciate it I am just trying to connect the dots, as to where my low self-esteem comes from. Why I have never asked anyone for help, why I could be drowning but I would give my life jacket to save someone else. submitted by /u/KAZKALZ
Originally posted by u/KAZKALZ on r/AskMen
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