There is this girl who I became friends with and we started talking and I really liked her but I didn’t have the courage to confess to her, so we talked for some time more until one day I just confessed and write her a long paragraph telling her about my feelings and she just responded with a little ”no sorry I dont want a relationship ship yet” (even though she had been complaining about it for a long time now and still does years later). So I blocked her everywhere just to create some distance between us but in my stupidity I unblocked her and started talking to her after just a couple weeks and we started talking again daily after that. Then we moved up into a different school (still in the same small city with the same people) and we got invited to a party so I bought some drinks for myself but accidentally got really drunk (it was my first time) and I just started shouting and telling at her about how I have to tell her about how my feelings and I had to be physically restrained and kept in a different part of the house. So she got mad at me, I apologized and told her that I wont talk to her or have any contact with her until she has with me so we didnt talk for a couple of weeks. But in that time I finally realised how much my thoughts were filled with her and how sad I was because of my feelings toward her. So in another party I got slightly drunk and got the confidense to tell one of my friends about how much I despise seeing her, hearing her name or voice or even thinking about her because it instantly brings back all of the emotions I have had about her (I told her that she was still amazing and hadnt done anything wrong and that it was me). So after the party I blocked her everywhere and I was a lot happier for a couple of weeks and I hardly ever saw her at school or anywhere else, but recently she has been coming up to me or my friends a lot usually she talks only to my friends (we have multiple friends in common) or sometimes even talking to me (I dont respond and leave as fast as I can) and today when we were eating at the cafeteria she sat right behind me so I had to just endure her even though she knows I still dont want to talk to her. I just want to be able to let go and get overher but shes just rooted so deep in my mind after years of talking daily it feels like I can’t. I feel so worthless because I cant do it and it makes me hate myself and her a lot. submitted by /u/No-Initiative-5865
Originally posted by u/No-Initiative-5865 on r/AskMen
You must log in or # to comment.