This is an issue I have which I know is irrational and I know is stupid, but whenever I start feeling particularly stressed about anything I immediately turn that energy inwards and start absolutely ripping myself to shreds on the inside. It’s something that’s pervaded my life since I was young and just got worse as time went on. I have a lot of mental issues I didn’t understand when I was younger and so, in my confusion, I started taking it out on myself as a way of minimizing my impact. And while it’s already hard to manage when the issue is just, my lack of time management or worries about whether I said something wrong, it gets even worse when it comes to romantic/sexual feelings. Cause on top of the usual shit, my horrible relationship with my own sexuality for most of my life gives me an extra long list of things to fixate about my own ineptitude with. So then you get times like right now, where I feel stressed because of schoolwork and the desire to ask a friend of mine out, and if I don’t actively try not to I just spiral into a frankly miserable mental pit of "He’s too good for you you incompetent freak you know you’re going to die one day you know it’s all your fucking fault " etc etc etc. submitted by /u/MacTireGlas
Originally posted by u/MacTireGlas on r/AskMen