Here we are, alas. I’ve reached a point in my life where I just don’t know what to do, who to turn to, or where to go. My dad and I haven’t spoke to each other in over 10 years, my mom is struggling with finding a job at the moment too, and all that aside I’m at an age now where I should absolutely be able to provide for myself as an independent adult, but yet I just can’t seem to figure it out. I will be 33 years old soon, I own an older vehicle, I do not own a house, I have 4 children, and am nearly 50,000 in debt from school. I have marketable skills and experience in multiple different industries, and haven’t been able to even acquire an interview for anything paying more than 40k / annually. In the last 2-3 years I have probably submitted well over 1000 applications. I follow up within a week of no answer, and usually don’t hear back after. I have 8+ years of experience in the automotive industry and am proficient in both gas and diesel repair, 5 years of Senior / Operational Management experience successfully leading large teams of over 100 people in the beef processing industry, I have my own business tuning / restoring pianos, and have been recording, producing, and doing sound design for almost 7 years. The music business is something I have been trying to establish on the side while holding down a primary source of income or while I was in college. My current primary income is doing fleet maintenance for an Amazon logistics company, which I had really high hopes for until recently. The owner had talked to me since the beginning about needing an operations manager, but said he wanted everyone to start at the bottom, which I said was no problem. I’ve had several conversations with him since (about 6 months ago), brought up relevant issues, provided solutions, and never seem to get a solid answer except for that it’s still on his mind and that he’d choose someone before leaving out of town for a few months. He has been gone for about a month now, and no one has been chosen. I don’t know if it’s a way of saving money by avoiding paying the additional salary, I don’t know if it’s because of 2 other employees who have more tenure that are eager to move up but lack the leadership experience. I can’t seem to figure it out, but after several efforts to communicate clearly I have a strong feeling it won’t be happening any time soon. I don’t go out or party, I don’t play video games any more as I just can’t even enjoy them when there are real problems in the front of my mind that I feel need solved. I don’t consider myself perfect by any means, and I try to keep a pretty adaptive mindset overall but lately I just can’t help but feel this sense of anger at myself, like I’m just not doing enough, and I’ve noticed I’ve started feeling resentment towards others who lack skills and competence but still land senior or executive positions. So I come to my fellow men today for help, advice, or any criticism that might change my perspective and allow me see a piece that’s missing. I’m not a lazy guy, I work hard, I work smart, I genuinely try to make improvements and provide value to my place of work. I want to have earned a good life for my future self, but right now I’m just not seeing the light at the end of the tunnel and it’s a bit unnerving because I know my kids need me. submitted by /u/Adonkeywithvibrato
Originally posted by u/Adonkeywithvibrato on r/AskMen
You must log in or # to comment.