I’m 39. And I have a partner and one kid. And over the last few months I keep waking up and struggling to get out of bed. And I’ll just doze for 30-60mins after my alarm at 550am. And I keep thinking. Every extra minute in bed gets me another minute closer to being back in bed. It sounds like I’m depressed. And I probably am a bit. I’m a full time worker in a decent job wfh 99% of the time. I’ve just gotten into this routine. By the time I get up I’m flat chat getting lunch ready. Making breakfast. Walk the dog. Work like 9-230 then the kid is home and I can’t do any more work because my partner doesn’t like that I disappear back into my office once she’s finished. So I end up working at night after the kid has gone to bed. Which I used to use that time for writing music and practising guitar and singing (music was my first degree. I’ve been a gigging musician most of my life). But now I just feel like if I don’t do that extra hour or two of work I can’t keep up. I used to work 6hrs a day and smash my work and keep up doing 80% of the hours I should be doing. But lately it’s not working. I’m just feeling like I get no time for myself. And so my brain keeps saying like ‘fuck it man. Keep sleeping. Once you’re up you’re in full dad mode for everyone else. Not yourself’. Anyone else gone through this malaise at around 40? Just like. Going through the monotony of each day is such a grind. And then inevitably that frustration comes out at work a bit. To my kid a bit. To my partner mostly. Any thoughts, actions or creative insults are greatly appreciated. 😃 submitted by /u/Madmanalph77
Originally posted by u/Madmanalph77 on r/AskMen
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