So me (20M) and my ex (20F) both dated you could say for 2 years. It was my first relationship, and we did everything. I got her pregnant, and we had a miscarriage, and after that, the relationship went downhill, and a few months later, it was clear she didn’t want me, so I ended things out of love, as we constantly argued daily. I’ve been hurting for a while, but I have used my hurt to improve. I have improved my skin, grown my hair, gotten off anti-depressants, I started studying at my childhood dream university, and I found a path I want to pursue (either research or work with cars, I am doing a maths and management degree at a Russell Group university). Things have genuinely improved in all aspects of my life post-breakup. However, my issue is that I don’t think I can fall in love or be with someone ever again. The reason I say this is I always feel bad about the miscarriage, and I just don’t wanna be in a toxic relationship anymore. I feel so lost now. I work around 27 hours a week on average at my part-time job, I study, I go out with friends, my life is great, but there’s just that one piece missing, and I know it’s love. I wanna be loved, I wanna be in a healthy relationship. Every girl I’ve spoken to post break-up, there’s just always something wrong; they either expect me to pay for everything, I don’t feel attracted to them, or they are completely hung up on the past. Why is it so, so difficult to fall in love again and be with someone who will treat me right? I know I am young and turning 21 next month, but I just want to know what I am doing wrong. It feels as if I’ll never find love or just be in a happy relationship. Is this how it works? You just have to wait? Does it get better? Will I ever move on? Nanjeeba Ayesha Nahian, if by some miracle you find this, I hope the new man is treating you well, and you’re happy. I don’t hate you, but the way you treated me still hurts to this day. I’ve moved on and am trying to figure out the next few steps in my journey submitted by /u/CapablePositive8699
Originally posted by u/CapablePositive8699 on r/AskMen
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