I’ve recently talked to my high school ex relationship. We didn’t have the traditional dating labels of girlfriend and boyfriend in high school. I was a senior and she was a sophomore. She really liked me and I failed to show her my love. She wanted a relationship and I couldn’t even do the bare minimum. The worst part is, at the time she was trying so hard to save it. And i was too scare to do anything about it. I knew what she was feeling but I didn’t acknowledge her feelings but I was sacred to tell her. I did love her. But for some reason i was scared and strung her along. I read our old texts and see how much she cared and try to save us. I’ve been reading those text since Jan 15 of 2018. Ever since then I struggled. It affected my relationship in college as I didn’t love that girl as much the other and the other She was mentally check out but through texts i see she really tried to save it. In our final text to each other in 2018, i told her a lie that i stop loving her. I said those hurtful things to her so it would be easy for her to move on. I through fighting it would be wrong. I realized i did it to make her happy but i sacrificed my own happiness. And i carried that on my shoulders for 8 years. I saw the relationships she was in. And I wanted to talk to her in the first years so much but I saw how happy she was in those relationships even if they were shorter than ours. We catch up on old times. We texted each other a month straight. She has a boyfriend and early on there was a boundary set. This is her longest relationship and she looks happy. And i’m happy for her. I wasn’t wanting a second chance. I told her how i felt and how i struggled since the last day. She gave me grace and said “you were the best part of my high school years we were just kids not knowing what to do…you said those hurtful things and i thought he would give me what you couldn’t…it wasn’t my intention to hurt you and i wish this was cleared up years ago i genuinely didnt know you still felt that way” And that kinda helps. I told her we should stop communicating for now. For once my heart doesn’t feel heavy. But i can’t get over it. I don’t know who else to talk to. I’m finally letting her go but i loved her more than anything. And i would do anything for another shot. But it won’t happen. How do I move on ? submitted by /u/Never3ndingStory
Originally posted by u/Never3ndingStory on r/AskMen
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