I’m 36, and I feel like my life has no meaning This weekend, I flew out to meet a woman I’d been talking to for a couple months, in person for the first time. I thought we were having a nice weekend, but when she told me she just wasn’t feeling a connection, on my last night, I felt that all-too-familiar sinking familiar My nervous system has been in “what’s wrong with me?” Mode ever since, which tells me one thing I put so much pressure on receiving my meaning in life from relationships, because I feel like I have no direction otherwise. I have a boring office job, I go to the gym, I go to church, I have no friends, no hobbies, no savings, and I feel like my life has no meaning. When I think of a life with meaning, I think of people who have their career, or their path, or their “thing”. I did graduate from college, but with an arts degree. I could go back to school, but I don’t know if that’s what I want to do. I don’t know what I want to do. I feel like I have no drive, and it makes me feel so boring and uninteresting and underdeveloped. It makes me feel like a boy. The only thing I know for certain, that I want, is to start a family. But I can’t put all my eggs into that basket. I can’t just base my entire life’s happiness and meaning, on whether I’m in a relationship. I want to feel like a whole person outside of a relationship, and have someone *want* to come along for the ride with me. submitted by /u/Shades_of_red_
Originally posted by u/Shades_of_red_ on r/AskMen