20-year-old dude, here. I’m confused as hell where I’m heading. Dad passed away back when I was 7. Mom passed away 4 days ago. Since then life became a bit tough. After dad’s death my aunts and uncles (my mom’s siblings) helped me and my mom move into a new apartment and supported us financially. The only person I ever felt really attached to was my mother. My uncles and aunts are also good people, they were looking after us since my dad’s passing, but they get miserable sometimes, start fighting with each other UNEXPECTEDLY, which ruins the family peace and fucks with my head. I started looking for a job since I turned 18 so I could support mom, myself, and cut the chains loose so we don’t have to rely on my mom’s siblings financially. Finally got a remote job about a month ago. Not 100% certain whether it would stay or not, I don’t wanna get too comfortable. But since the first salary came in there was this feeling that “finally, I’m taking us closer to autonomy.” But when my mother passed away couple days ago I was devastated, and now I think I have nothing to lose. Currently living in a room with my aunts and uncles in the same apartment. Want to rent out my own space because I can’t live with these f*ckin people forever when they scream at each other and give me insane anxiety. Because of this I’m afraid I wouldn’t be able to perform at my job either. But so many complications that I’m stuck with them at least for a few months, don’t know how many. Privacy is also an issue. Although not a huge one but it exists. It’s only at night I could peacefully jack my shit off to help lower some stress down. But it can’t go on like this. If I could succeed at my job, I could have options to move out. Would still face hurdles but I think I’ll get around them. But the uncertainty ‘when would it happen?’ really bugs me. Wrote this down to let it out. If you think you could offer advice, please write in the comments. Would be helpful. Particularly those older than 20. submitted by /u/Dear_Information451
Originally posted by u/Dear_Information451 on r/AskMen
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