I’ve done a lot of work on myself, most of the time I can accept that the past is the past, and the journey that I took was necessary to become the person that I am today. But I am not without faults, and moments of weakness… and lately, I’ve been replaying what I missed out on over and over. And it hurts so bad, the time I feel was taken from me. By resentment is generally aimed at the environment I was raised in and the real pressure point of the pain is my time in college. Long story short, I’m gay… but it wasn’t till a couple years after college that I even became aware of it. Now that I’ve accepted it, lived it, and now experience life fully as “myself”… I look back at my time in college and I think about how I spent all my time with people (girls) that I thought I was supposed to be with, rather than with people (guys) that I actually wanted deep down. College is such a pivotal time and unique time where you’re not really a kid, but you’re definitely not grown up… you get to run around, limited responsibility and just focus on who you’re supposed to be. I spent that time getting girl after girl only to drift farther and farther from who I truly was supposed to be and it’s eating me up inside. I feel like so many other moments in life can be kinda bridged, and recreated in one way or another… but college is so unique that it just can’t, you’ll never be young, hot, and horny and living in an area and time where you’re just surrounded by that blissfully immature energy. I don’t think I’ll ever get over this… and it sucks bc it’s really the only thing I’m hung up on. submitted by /u/Aggressive-Dot1944
Originally posted by u/Aggressive-Dot1944 on r/AskMen