It’s based on my personal life, It may get mentally challenging to read this, If you’re not emotionally strong then please refrain from reading this post. It was my Parent’s Annivarsary today, It’s been more than four years today since my Mother have expired. From last four years, I don’t have any words about what to say to Dad on their Annivarsary occasion I’m blank, me and my sister no one talks about Annivarsary, when Mom was there we have celebrated their Annivarsary every year but now everyone is just acting like a normal day on their Annivarsary I really miss my Mom alot. The reason of her death was my grandparents and my Dad’s sister and brother It was a planned murder, They had done a short circuit at our newly constructed house which caused the tragedic accident I was just 19 at that time, preparing for iit jee, I wasn’t home during the accident, I was in city preparing for jee. I got to know the next day about the happening, I was shattered, I knew the culprits but couldn’t do anything as every family member betrayed us, enen my Dad’s sister child, nobody came to see me on main day and not even after that 13 days of rituals I keep on getting the flashbacks of the day when I had burn my Mother in the ceremony that happens in hindu religion It is the worst nightmare feeling that I have in my life. I feel so bad how can I fire the person who gave birth to me. I feel like I have done some crime. I am clueless and don’t feel like living I studied and cleared jee, Indian Airforce exams in my drop year, and got into an Nit which is among top 10 Nits in India. I’m satisfied and grateful with whatever I have. I’ll have my college completed in 2027, currently I’m also interning at a Banglore based tech startup, stipend is enough to pay clg fees, personal expenses, I don’t feel to ask Dad for Money most of the times. I love my Dad alot, Dad kept my Mom, me, my sister out of India in Nepal, as he has a job in Nepal. I’ve seen my Dad struggling for our school fees, expenses but he never gave up Now also Dad works in Nepal and Dad doesn’t support his parents and his sisters as he know they are criminals. I am alive for my Dad and My sister only. Will work hard to get a good job and have a secure future for my Family. My Mom’s Birthday comes on 8th April, I don’t know what to do on that day, I feel very alone. I feel like I am in a depression and I don’t have any humger to achieve anything financially or emotionally. I won’t do any self harm because I have my Dad’s hopes on me which I will fulfill anyhow! as we all know once a Human is expired we can’t bring her back again. I don’t feel like getting into relationships in clg. I feel like if I’m not happy myself then how can I keep someone else happy. I don’t know what advice to ask here, but If you have any suggestions or advice please feel free to share them. I’ll try to implement them in my life Hope you have a good day ahead! and please respect your parents, try valuing their emotions submitted by /u/PromiseCompetitive89
Originally posted by u/PromiseCompetitive89 on r/AskMen