I’m 21 (m) years old and I’m pathetic I try so hard to do what’s right but somehow I still sabotage my self and do what’s wrong, I lied to my girlfriend a few times and I said some things to her I never should have, I told her she was gaining weight when we first got together and it really effected her than I had a girl at a bar get my information (I never spoke to her outside of a 2 min convo about my job) but my girlfriend thinks I cheated on her, but I lied about the situation in total trying to not to make things worse because I deep down know i shouldn’t have been there, she has changed a lot since I’ve hurt her and she points out to me how much of a piece of shit I am and how pathetic I am, I try and calm her down and tell her I don’t know why I hurt her but I really don’t want to and she still just keeps telling me how little I am I guess, and she’s right. I’m not really impressive at all but I really care about being a man, I never had a good male role model in my life and I work hard but I have bad spending habits so even though I make good $ i really don’t, I work out a lot but my physique is really ok at most, I want to do what’s right by people but I seem to always let the people who care about me down, my friends my girlfriends and my mother. I get mad at my gf when she brings up the past because I’m trying to move forward but she says I don’t care and she is not enough for me or I would have never done anything to her, I try and make her happy and give her advice but she doesn’t seem to recognize anything good in me, she’s not really as respectful to me and she will tell me to stfu and it’s just because I hurt her she was the sweetest girl at one time, I really want to fix it but I’m not a man and I don’t know how to handle life, I’m just yapping at this point but I really need advice not just about her really but what do real men do how do they act how do they react and how do I take my self to that level, so I stop disappointing everyone? submitted by /u/KeyArtichoke9094
Originally posted by u/KeyArtichoke9094 on r/AskMen