Here i was getting extremely tilted grinding out yama contracts, specifically bloodied blows and I keep planking at various points in the fight. Im getting more and more angry, not wanting to be there, still needing to do 3 more contracts after I did this one. At a certain point, it clicked. I sat back in my chair, took my hands off the mouse and keyboard and lay them on my knees and looked up at the ceiling and said to myself, out loud, “what the fuck am I doing?”. I asked myself why I was driving myself to the point of wanting to throw a water bottle as hard as I could for a simple cosmetic recolor of a set of oathplate? For what? To impress strangers i run past? I didn’t even want it that badly to begin with. Its just something to grind out, and is seen as a huge pvm goal for some people. For me it was making me hate the game. What finally clicked in this moment is the fact its just a game. This may sound ridiculous becuase of course its a game. Games are supposed to be fun. But runescape has always been about the grind. Why am I forcing myself to do something thats not fun? Getting that mad for a cosmetic re color isnt something to be mad about. I immediately sold my remaining contracts and did something else. I felt immediate, subconscious relief. I feel the same way about blorva. Vardorvis is a boss that no matter how many times I practice the normal version, and no matter how much I try, I simply CANNOT get the axe skipping mechanic down. It seems to be a hard counter to my very DNA. Just thinking about grinding out the awakened version fills me with dread. So, I just accept that blorva is an accomplishment i will never get. I now see that as a good thing. People are just better than me at this game, and that’s okay. Im content with regular torva. Regular oathplate. And this goes for all content in the game. submitted by /u/The_Siphon
Originally posted by u/The_Siphon on r/2007scape