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I’m 27 years old woman and was kicked out of my mother’s apartment at the age of 20. From childhood to now, I’ve been overwhelmed by anxiety and fear that I think mostly come from uncertainty, but people often say that I come across as poised and calm, and that is because I internalise every battle I am going through and just lock them up inside so they don’t stick out and reveal themselves. I’ve never even dated a man before. I spend a lot of time in the gym just focusing on my workout, and one of the reasons I work out every day is because I’ve been suffering from lower back and knee issues for 3 years. Recently, my ability to walk, to perform basic movements, or to do weight-bearing lower body strength exercises has been quite significantly reduced. It’s a bit frustrating… I’m currently jobless, but I’m willing to work on it. I didn’t go to college, so I don’t have diplomas. Appearance-wise, there’s nothing special about my face, but when I smile big, I might look slightly better, and I’ve been told by some physical rehab trainers that I have wide pelvis, quite squared shoulder, and walk like models, and don’t get me wrong because from their perspectives walking like models mean I’m unable to properly walk and use enough hip or torso movements, which is probably wrecking my knees. I have long, straight hair and wear simple clothing. I no longer dress up… I forgot that fun in my early 20s, when I occasionally wore dresses and heels, and put on make-up having some blast with my friends. One day, I’d like to love and be loved by a man who just gets me and to whom it’s safe to show my vulnerability… But I doubt if I deserve it, and I doubt if there would be a man who understands my eccentricity… submitted by /u/GenevieveCostello

Originally posted by u/GenevieveCostello on r/AskMen