We’ve been in a relationship for a year now, and since then, there were lots of moments when i thought: “Shit, she’s so cool, and gorgeous” and all that kind of stuff. But recently, since its almost summer, im going back to thoughts that she is way to good for me. Don’t get me wrong, she shows her attention a lot, i know that she loves me, but sometimes i simply doesn’t feel it. I be laying in my bed with “what if” thoughts, overthinking the whole situatioin, even if its not that bad. Im a wallflover, not that tall (5’8 /1.73m)(she’s the same height), im average attractive, can’t say that im muscular, since i go to the gym for not that long, but i guess im average for now. Im Nerdy, i know a lot of stuff and my biggest interests have been astronomy and building/repairing PC’s. And i can’t even say that we have a giant gap between us - she’s gorgeous, really smart, but not that nerdy. She’s only really into horse sports (dk whats it called in english) , as she does this on a professional level. So the whole problem of my insecurity are parties. She’s goes out with her female friends quite often, sometimes house party, sometimes club… and i simply can’t be there. I tried to, many times, we even talked about it - but i can’t. I’m an introvert, i don’t like parties and the whole stuff, my social battery dies after 30 minutes there. After we talked about this, we came to a decision that it’ll be right if she goes with her friends out, and we have our time together on some other day. Still, i feel really bad after the whole conversation. What if there will be someone else? Someone better than me? What if he will get better along with her daily routine and interests, or simply with going out? What should i do? Is it me? Her? Both if us? I know a lot about her favourite stuff, music taste, favourite foods, films, games, etc, know what type of gifts she want, i write down every single thing she ever wanted to get it later, i see the smallest changes in her mood and expressions. I try my best to be a good boyfriend, but still - i feel REALLY weak, and at some point like im not enough. submitted by /u/MishEvous
Originally posted by u/MishEvous on r/AskMen
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