I just want to know that I haven’t missed the train on life and love. I’m 30, I’ve never been married but I was deeply in love once (it was very real, not the teenager kind. But it ended bc we got together before we knew ourselves well enough to know what we needed to feed our own souls). I’m not a failure by any means, but I’m not making money using my undergrad degree, and I just feel like such a boring loser. Dating in my city seems to come easy for everyone around me. People have found their person (if that’s even a thing) before their 30’s, having kids, and working in a fulfilling job. Mean while I get a lot of first dates that say I’m a sweet, handsome, respectable gentlemen, but unfortunately there’s no spark (the ones that I myself didn’t turn down a second date for). I’ve been on 7 first dates this month, that’s almost two per week, so it’s not like I’m repulsive. Ive asked a few for feedback, and genuinely, it’s just a lack of spark (so they say). Job wise I want to be working in film and television, but I live in Texas, not Cali/NY. And I have a good job that unfortunately I can’t leave for the sake of my ten year old dog. I’m looking down the barrel of the rest of my life and feeling like this is just as good as it gets. If I find love again, it’ll be with somebody I settle for and not actually love. I’ll be successful in my corporate gig, but always think “that might’ve been me” at the Emmys and Oscar’s. I do engage in some amateur stuff in my city. But I fear my life will just go the ways it’s been no matter how much effort I put in any area. I’m asking if there’s anyone out there who’s been in my shoes, felt this way, only to be surprised that it got better. That the things they thought they’d never had in life happened. That all this effort and head ache and bullshit is worth it in the end. Because I KNOW it will be, so long as I stick the course. But I’m just not seeing the light at the end of the tunnel. Anyone? submitted by /u/ButlerButtsButBetter
Originally posted by u/ButlerButtsButBetter on r/AskMen
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