23M, I got my first job as a Software Engineer and first girlfriend in the same month in 2025. My gf microcheats and I lose trust and I becomes toxic and she breaks up with me after dating for 4/5 months. I have high standards so I know I already bungled my only chance. My engineering manager who is the only progressing my development and whom I become close with suddenly dies in an accident a few weeks after my breakup. I get neglected with my work, don’t get much work and I end up getting laid off a few months later in this job market. Everytime I try to be better something goes sideways. I got therapy to fix my breakup problems, but it was very depressing doing the internal work and coming to realize being physically, emotionally and verbally abused till I was 19 did a number on me and ruined me. I’m moving back home. I lowkey would’ve just offed myself by now since I’ve accepted I’ve just gone through too much and continue going thru a lot to be happy but I don’t want to traumatize my sibling who has a bright future, so I’m waiting till they become a doctor in 10 years, and if I’m not good by that time imma follow thru. But how do I go about trying to make the most of life with this constant agony and failure going on in my head? Physical exercise and therapy only helps so much. submitted by /u/SkolVikingsAndTwins
Originally posted by u/SkolVikingsAndTwins on r/AskMen
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