TL;DR: I went to college with 0 dating/relationship/sexual experience and left with 0 experience(freshmen). Lately I’ve realized how lonely I am when it comes to intimacy. I have a lot of friends, including a lot of women friends. NGL, I’ve always played it safe. I’m never suggestive and I don’t apply pressure because I don’t want to make people uncomfortable. Looking back, maybe I’ve been too careful. I’ve tried online dating, but it’s gotten depressing. Even on apps that are supposed to be more open-minded like Feeld, I don’t get much attention. At one point I switched my settings to include guys just to see if my profile was even being seen. It’s getting to the point where I’ve thought about getting with guys just to feel wanted, desired, liked, or to have some kind of experience to talk about, even though I only find women attractive. I’ve also caught myself wishing there was a pill I could take to get rid of my desire completely. These feelings get overwhelming sometimes. I just want to focus on my education, career, and making my family proud. On dating apps, the only women who seem to message me are selling content or services. I know paying for a first experience would just make me feel more ashamed of myself for being so inadequate to do things normally. I am average looking 5’10, 180 Healthy and in great shape. Only thing thing physically that could limit me is I’m black. (No shame there) Anyway to honestly Not to make it a self **** post but ts hurt. If I could take a medicine to make me not care I would. None of my friends know about my troubles. My homegirls don’t even gotta try for anything to happen and they get flown out every other month. I just want someone to share their life with me in conversation and spirit. 😞 Can’t even askwomen cuz they can’t care to read all these words(joke)they have 150 character limit. Ik I am 18 and have a life to live , just tired of living alone. submitted by /u/Own_Figure_441
Originally posted by u/Own_Figure_441 on r/AskMen
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