I (26M) dated a girl (23F) for just under two years. She and I had lot of issues with her new job. She was constantly out of town and i wanted her around more. I kept coming across as needy about it and it caused a ton of arguments. She was an amazing girlfriend until she got this job. It was a long distance relationship for two years and only saw her once a month, maybe twice. We hadn’t had any alone time for a while either. There were months where i only saw her with her family. So we never got 1 on 1 time. I couldn’t take it anymore and did not have the balls to end it. And then an older ex texted me around the same time and asked to meet up. I actually agreed to it. I show up to her place. Knock and realize this was a really bad fucking idea. And went home. The older ex saw i left on ring camera and got pissed off. Saved the footage, and sent it to my girlfriend. Girlfriend then broke up with me. I told her i didn’t see her or talk to her when i was there. I knocked and realized how wrong it was and went home. She wanted no part of it. And broke up with me. I feel fucking sick. I am an idiot. If i was unhappy about the relationship, i should have ended it and did whatever i wanted to do. I understand i made a mistake. But how can i live with myself knowing i did this? TLDR: unhappy with girlfriend due to long distance and never seeing her. Was asked to meet with an old ex and got caught although didn’t physically cheat because i knew it was a bad idea. GF found out and broke up with me. How do i move on? submitted by /u/OddAd1067
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