5 grams of mushrooms and wanting to be the best man I could be for my partner. She dealt with me a lot trying to recover from a meth addiction and all my mental health issues. I basically just kept trying different therapists, kept writing and kept forcing myself out of my comfort zone. It’s easier said than done and took years of rewiring. The shrooms are unnecessary but worked for me. I feel like therapy and meditation could give the same therapeutic results (not experience). A lot of things didn’t work. Bad reactions to medications, relapses, shutting down, ect. It was super ugly. I still have things to work on but I’m a better man than my dad was at least. What keeps me going is seeing how far I’ve come. It’s like the gym. Working out is hard but when you realize how much progress youve made you want to keep going because you already proved to yourself putting the work in actually works. Even if it is slow.

Never counted my days sober but it’s been over 5 years since meth. I’m married now. I cann actually hold down jobs now instead of no call no showing because I’m too anxious to show up. I’m way less reactionary than before.

I definitely needed somebody to support me in the process. Abusive childhood background. Dropped out and got into drugs. I don’t think it needs to be a romantic partner but having someone does really help. Somebody who will hold you accountable when you’re slipping. Its a fight with the self.