I (28M)have had this thought for a while, i feel so othered from the rest of the humans and i dont know why, there shoudlnt be a reason for it, but i feel it so, specially women im romatically interested in. Im autistic, i know this plays a big role, but it still amazes me how big of a deal i got myself into when i was born. I see my friends in relationships and is hard but i have to admit i feel jelaous that they seem to have someone to confide, someone to rely on, someone they can let their guard low. Yesterday i was thinking, that why would i even want to have a gf for? what would i do with her? it has been so long since my last real relationship that the concept of being with someone feels so alien, how would i get to have trust enough in someone to share my darkest suffering with someone else? is not something i feel anyone deserves to be subjected to. Lots friends both male and female say im a great guy and that lots of girls would like to date me…but i dont feel it real, is hard to accept those wishes knowing what lays inside of me. I want to not feel bad from being alone, but my human existence longs for kinship. It feels like having hunger yet you know the food is not meant for you, so i have to make up my mind on starving, i think starving peacefully wont be that bad, but is hard to achieve. submitted by /u/IwasntDrunkThatNight
Originally posted by u/IwasntDrunkThatNight on r/AskMen