ive(18M) always been extremelly skinny and im not happy about it. since young, ive always had this kind of curiosity of how would it feel like to be kinda fat(not to a unhealthy extent). lately, ive been feeling this kind of desire to gain some weight, fat, and not muscle, and get kinda chubby to see how i like it(thinking about 20kg or smth), to know myself and my body better. i want to do it while im young, cause im not sure if id feel the same being older. i also plan to lose that weight if i dont like how it feels, but i fear to, eventhough being easy for me to maintain my current weight, end up regretting it and finding it difficult to go back. on the other hand, everytime i think about it, i feel gross and ahamed. im afraid of possible comments from family or friends about it. i just dont know what to do at this point submitted by /u/Glass_Different
Originally posted by u/Glass_Different on r/AskMen