I’ve kind of felt like this my entire life, but I just have very little, if not non-existent, drive or passion to pursue anything. In grade school I didn’t have any career aspirations I just knew I had to do go to college or join the military as per my parents’ ultimatum. I had a good job, lasted 10 years before I got laid off back in May, was severely burnt out at the end of it so in a way it was beneficial. I saved a substantial amount and plan to take a few more months before I start searching, so I’m not worried about it. Career and personal life wise I just don’t have any real passion to pursue anything. I’ve never had any long term goals outside of building my savings which came in handy, but I just don’t desire to do anything difficult or push forward to do better, seek out the next rung. The closest I came to that was pushing for senior which was a whole bullshit process that left me dejected rather than fulfilled. That expands to many facets of my life. I like to shoot, but I’m not skilled at it, just mediocre I suppose. I don’t do shooting competitions, don’t care to. Videogames I just play to keep myself busy and pass time really. I don’t date because I don’t see the point, I don’t have the personality for it. I just don’t know what even makes me actually feel joyful. Like I can be happy for a moment or two but on average everything just kinda feels like “this is it” and I get to spend another 20-40 more years working towards retirement where I do the same thing I’m doing now, except I can hardly wipe my own ass. Then I look at a bulk of my friends, I got a pair that are into all kinds of things and are experts at them. One does anything and everything on his cars, reloads, great shooter, unapologetically himself and master of his craft. Same for the other, dude casually just builds his own garage, deck, does all his home renovations, great hunter and fisherman. Then I look at myself; I live at home with my parents in my mid 30s, just kinda float between playing videogames and breaking it up by shooting at paper for an hour in the heat. I know comparing myself isn’t a great thing to do, but it is a reference point I can use to know I’m not probably where I should be. I just have no idea why I can’t have a little bit of focus and passion like literally any of my friends. Anyone else like this or is it just myself? Any of you figure out what the cause was or why you are like this? submitted by /u/028XF3193
Originally posted by u/028XF3193 on r/AskMen
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