I am 18M, i finished high school this year and i have been going through my uni hunting phase for the past 1.5 months now, this is one thing i have been suffering with for years now, its my parents expectations towards me, it seems like i can never satisfy them, my whole teenage their behaviour towards me depends on my grades and how well i perform in school, after every years final exam result they stop talking to me, they mourn like i committed a crime, and i don’t fail or anything i am not simply the topper, this time i hunt for universities on my own, applied to them and gave tests, i applied into 3 uni, all three being great but one of them is a prestigious and one of the best uni of nation, its merit list came out and i couldn’t make it in, despite me only having a week to prepare for its test, before test i told them i won’t make it as time is too short but they said give it your best, i thought they would support me but my mom said to me “we want u to be the best but u are just average”, and now they are again in that sad miserable mood… honestly this is just one of many instances that occur everyday, i feel like they just love me when i am bringing something, how is that unconditional love then? Isn’t parent’s love supposed to be without any reason? I don’t know what to do because i love them, but i really wanna just live alone, away from having to make up to the expectations of them everyday, and what hurts is that i try to the perfect son, i don’t smoke don’t drink, i don’t have a gf, i never go out late hell i don’t even go out most of the time, i never go party, i never put them in any trouble, and still they want more from me, they want someone who is perfect in everything but truth is that can only happen if i lose myself, i am already sacrificing a lot to please them and i fear i can’t do it for long. submitted by /u/omnitroxan
Originally posted by u/omnitroxan on r/AskMen
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