I take 120 mg per month. My doc retired. Seen another doc to establish care but he wants all my records first and random drug screening and pill counts. I’m always in and out of town, I do smoke weed sometimes that I’m working on. I don’t drink often, been at least 6 months. I’m in a lot of intense pain as a 23 year old with a non diagnosed penile inflammatory disease that I only hope god can heal & that’s why I do take these. It helps relax my penile veins. The tissue, it helps my hour glassing and my inflammatory pain. It helps me relax when I know I need to make big changes to actually heal, I’ve been to research hospitals with no answer and it’s very stressful. I take alprazolam because it helps the smooth muscle in my penis relax, it helps the veins be a bit less tense and I can finally relax and feel wavy for a bit. I Do abuse them most of the time. Sometimes I save them up, sometimes I take 120nmg in 4 days. I tell my docs I take 3-4 mg per day, I more so take the whole bottle right away, give some to friends and or save them up. I never ever take Xanax for more than a few days straight. I been doing this for 3 years now. This might sound real fiendish but I wanna get my 120, and just keep saving them up. Anyways my doctor is retiring all of a sudden, I seen 2 different doctor and none of them are willing to give me a script, not even a small bridge until I find a new doc. One said possibly with strict guidelines like I said, random drug testing, proof of all things I’ve tried, hospital records, proof from my old psychiatrist that it helps my penile, testicular and groin pain as well as smooth muscle contractions as I let him know it makes my penile area pulsate and hourglass and lose size, which I believe isn’t permanent however structurally. I live in Vegas I’m tryna see what I can do. It truly helps my pelvic congestion and penile pain and helps me sleep at night and my health related anxiety. I just want everyone to be happy, I wanna feel healthy, and spread love and tranquility. I hope I can somehow find a doctor willing to prescribe my 129.m per month. I started getting them 3 years ago, I’ve built my way up to 120. It’s been 5 months that I’ve gotten that many but now my doc is retiring. What should I do? I’m going back to a new doc next week but I can’t just keep trying. I’m also all out, which is cool but when I get hella pain and my dick starts hurting or I stress, I gotta find other ways to deal. I’ll heal one day. Yes I do love them, but really they just help me so much that I associate safety with them. submitted by /u/Inlifethereslove
Originally posted by u/Inlifethereslove on r/AskMen
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